confessions!!!!!!

hmmmmmmmm
so ........31 confessions... bahut jyada hai...but i'll try ........
here i go:

1. Iam cleanliness freak....i cannot tolerate scattered things..... and i cannot work in such places... these things irritate me alot. ghar aane ke baad sabse pehla kaam ghar saaf karne ka hi hota hai...everything should be systematic and clean....

2. i dnt like untidy ppl. i mean who r not well dressed and untidy.....

3. If someone steps on my slippers........i wont say nething......but i really hate tht.

4. I care too much abt my feets...they should be clean and no tann.....

5. I dnt like ppl using my things roughly......or returning me in bad shape...i feel like killing them. i just luv my things (kitne bhi purane ho jaaye...) and im possessive 4 them.

6. I cant give my things to neone forever (exceptions r there). I rarely do this and i only give my things to those whom i luv.....

7. I love my soft toys and dolls and i dnt allow anyone to play with it... even i sleep with my teddy.....aahh i just luv sleepinhg with it.....

8. I luv to sleep late.... ppl call me "NISHACHAR" i just luv the silence of night, everyone sleeping and me doing random things at home........oooh i just luv tht feeling.

9. ppl think tht im very talkative, im......but i love to be alone...most of the times.......talking to no one. i luv being alone at home, no one around......i know most of the ppl wont believe this.....

10. I alwaz avoid crying......its not tht i never feel like, its because i dnt like doing tht, mujhe bahut jaldi rona aata hai , par i alwaz control tht... im really gud at tht. and i hate crying in front of neone. and if someone talks on tht stuff after tht or makes fun of me....i feeling like killing him/her.

11. im very sensitive person....the only thing is i never show my real feelings..... aajkal thaoda thoda jyada batane lag gayi houn...but to only my best frnd......

12. i have many secrets deep inside me.....not even disclosed to my best frnds.... and just because of tht many times i acted to be fine and happy.....and i can bet.....no one can catch me in tht phase.

13. i hate arguments....i alwaz avoid them..... even i cannot argue with neone..... even if i try, i cannot shout back or argue. i can argue or shout or get angry on only 2 ppl..."MY DAD" & "MY BROTHER".......... saara gussa jyadatar bhai par hi nikalta hai..... poor boy. ;)

14. i luv watching romantic scenes......plz, im not getting dirty... the thing is i just luv to see the commitment in thr eyes and ofcourse the trust.

15. I have many frnds...but very very few r really-2 close to my heart....... and i cannot see anything wrong with them. i try doing all work 4 them whenever im around them, i luv cooking 4 them (though im not a very good cook).
i cannot see tears in thr eyes.....and if they r upset...i just try to be with them....... right now im not physically with my sweety, but i really want to be thr .

16. I cannot show my anger to neone...not even my best frnds. if im angry i just stay quite, but thts 4 sure tht they will never know tht angry on them.

17. im very fond of shoes....... specially sports shoes and boots........i also like high heels...but i cant wear them....hehheheheheehhee cant walk.......my biggest problem wid heels.

18. I luv when ppl say "U ARE LOOKING GR8"........ the reason is i luv to be "TIP-TOP" alwaz.....

19. 1st time wen i saw a kissing scene on so called "IDIOT-BOX"...... tht nite i dreamt tht someone kissed me and i became pregnant.....hehehehheehheheheehe

20. I can see nething in my dreams...anything(as wild as u can go) , when i was in 7th std, i saw tht im getting married to GOVINDA...chhheeeeeeeeeee...yaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkk

21. i like ppl appreciating me, but i cannot tolerate it wen ppl alwaz do it...every now n then.... jab bhi unke saamne jaao, kissi k bhi saamne shuru ho jaate hain, i really dnt know how to react tht time, i just feel like "RUN AWAY"

22. though im emotional......but ppl think tht im not, im very strong frm inside (this is true :) ), the only reason tht i never show wat i feel, or im upset or wats in my mind.....

23. I dnt like ppl trying to interfere in my matters, or asking again and again...how and wat r u feeling....... why r u not talking... i hate giving reasons

24. when ppl say tht they need me.........aaaahh i just luv tht. also when ppl say "PLZ DNT LEAVE, WE FEEL GUD WID U".

25. i cannot see ppl around me sad... i can do anything to make them smile........

26. im damn moody....no one knows tht.........

27 . the first thing tht attracts me abt neone is his/her intelligence, dressing sense, and maturity........

28. i believe in god...but never believe in stupid thngs....as:
billi(cat) ne raasta kaat diya, females cannot attend the cremation, u cannot cut ur nails on thursday etc.....

29. i saw my grandmother dying in front of me...and for the whole period of her therapy...i used to feel helpless, tht pain is still fresh in my mind. i still remember tht my dad placed peice of wood on her face....it hurts.........

30. iam afraid of crowd... i feel insecure...... also jab peeche se koi gaadi aa rahi ho and ur r walking and vehicle ki speed kam ho jaati hai.....baap rey........

31... wow..this is the last one...... i hate wen someone scolds me....neone........i cannot take tht.Even..i dnt like too uch of expectations.... upto a certain limit its ok, par sometimes its really hard to take. still i try to fulfill all the expected thngs....but many times i feel saturated!!!!

And finally 31 confessions r over...thankgod........